If Only is a poetry newsletter/blog about infertility, loss, love, and the fragile beauty of being alive. It lives in the quiet, aching moments between what we hoped for and what actually happened. It’s for the questions that don’t have tidy answers, the ache of almost, and the everyday courage it takes to keep living with an open heart.
Here, I’ll share poems, reflections, and pieces of my story—not just the hard parts shaped by grief, but also the ordinary moments: the love I have for my husband, the small joys, the life I’m building while still figuring it all out. I write about waiting, longing, learning how to keep going, and what it means to be human through it all.
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